Please Be Patient

For I have autism. I try my best to suppress my autistic tendencies, it's a type of lobotomy in a way but much more mentally straining. Since my autistic tendencies are generally frowned upon it makes it extra important for me to suppress it.

Besides that I have other mental disorders that generally brings trouble and annoyance to others. I try not to attention whore online I really do but I can't resist attention whoring. It's a part of my general mental deficiency.

I have been teaching myself to program because I want to be useful. I think I am deluding myself. But my mental deficiency prevents me from accepting that. I will succeed

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The spectrum is circular. Think of a round horse shoe, quite unlike regular horseshoes in that it is a closed circle. The two furthest points actually occupy the same space. That is the spectrum we are dealing with here.