Is this really the life you wanted?

Did you, as a kid, say to yourself "I want to be a total fucking loser when I grow up!"? Probably not, but yet here you are, cranking out strings of symbols to tell a computer what to do. How sad.

>>1

no but how is my life that bad, seriously ?

i do have some good colleagues and they are fairly down to earth and i am not some kind of superficial sycophant always trying to win everybody over.

and i do something reasonably useful for ``society at large'' by writing codes.

and i can cultivate my knowledge of culture by watching movies, discovering music, learning history of the internet and computing industry, reading books with all kinds of crazy stories and creative writing in them. the world is full of events and projects, throughout history and finding out about them is a worthwhile thing to do.

think of all the work that goes into software, well it is quite a team effort and everybody puts in some effort defucking some particular little thing, so that the whole thing can do many useful things, and without too many hiccups.

>>18

also, sports and taking long walks or bus rides can be a whole lot of fun. and talking with some illustrious opinonated colleague is a lot of fun, we go downtown and he's like "all these clothing stores are for douchebags and douchebagettes" and i'm thinking, we'll it's great that he is willing to self-express, self-expression is quite a thing to achieve.

also, what of fancy clothing? is it not a fun thing to do ? and all the inane images on 4chan, well there is quite an art to them, to gathering these little glimpses of nonsense from teleivison broadcasts and ms paint drawings, there is quite a culture to it and every little artifact is precious because it has its own story, you can spend many years collecting inane images and gifs. same goes for collecting music.

entire cities to explore as well. buildings, each with their own rich history. years have elapsed and people have done all kinds of things in them. it could have been you. i haven't been to to the YMCA since 2002 it was, and well I fondly remember these group activities and sports and so on, it's crazy when you think of it, in these days computers ran windows 98 and the world is still there, I am still there, I still get to shitpost,
life is short. there is so much to discover.

the summer will come, the beautiful sun will shine, I will be traveling this year, travel is always quite a thing.

>>20

Software can be useful. Isn't that the whole premise of programming ? I mean you'd be contradicting yourself browsing a programming BBS, developing a taste for programming, and so forth, if you thought programming was completely useless. There is a whole lot of problems and planning that computers help sort out for various companies and organisations. They can mechanize a wide variety of tasks.

Please, can you say why programming would be useless ?

>>24

Do you find beauty in programming then? Gerald Sussman's videos seem to try to make programming seem beautiful. Or is that another thing that should go up my ass ? I'd be happy to hear your opinion. I'm sorry if you think I talk too much. I think there is value to be found in self-expression. why have a BBS otherwise ? to agglomerate tons of pessimistic nihilistic cynical thoughts ?

>>26

I guess it makes me sound too capitalist that I try to find it "useful". It is because I have shifted from being a hobby programmer to paid programmer, and admittedly it was a bit of a heart-breaking event, to some degree. But the advice I got is, if you have boring programming at work you can do more "creative" programming at home. I did have a lot of fun writing completely useless programs some years ago. Especially when I implemented the algorithms that Sussman described in his videos, if only because he described them so well :3