how can i stop being edgy

I always assumed people did things because they liked to do them, not be sycophant conformists. So I spent most of my youth on programming. Now I have acne and I feel edgy and it seems everyone automatically hates me, in fact a guy even called me "insane". How can I game the system and seem less edgy? I am pretty young, I don't really understand how the world works, all I get from the powers that be are these random commandments with no explanation of the why, can anyone older explain how the world works, I will never understand anything, well I don't want just to spend my life acting pretending to be "normal" how would that be polite to people, constantly cultivating deceit?

The problem is that you care too much. The older I get, the less I care about other people's general influence, success, and failures. At the same time, it's important to recognize the social reality for what it is. People will and always play social games. Don't fight it. It's a part of the experience. Don't expect there to be an obvious hero or villain. Recognize that it exists and strategize rationally. But, that's not an excuse to act like social retard. Social games have real consequences, which most are silently determined. Understand their motives and your own. On the same token, many will force a narrative over their lives. Checkpoints. Chapters. The other. Life isn't a story. That implies a deeper, objective meaning. Grow the fuck up and stop giving a shit.