Name: Anonymous 2016-06-11 14:28
So I would never thought I'd be asking this. A kind of light bulb has switched on in my brain. I'm 36, not in the greatest shape but not a beast either, gym and exercise regularly, steady job. I like cooking, playing piano, biking, getting out of my mancave sometimes, it's not the best life but I generally get on with things.
Despite every attempt - and it's always been on my part - I have never been able to get a girlfriend. Websites, at work, friends, dating. Now I can appreciate that there's women out there who in the same boat, but I haven't met a single one yet. I don't consider myself old, but it's not like I was born yesterday either, and perpetually being the lonely guy "oh well maybe you'll find someone eventually" while women seem to get spoiled rotten their entire lives has been stressful.
So I thought why not go gay. The thought of a hard dick, in my mouth, slapping it against my face, masturbating it until it exploded down my throat, rubbing his belly and balls and legs.. it actually makes me hard. I love to do that, it makes my head spin, just sucking a hard dick like a whore, swallowing the whole load, sucking it until it was soft and saying thank you afterwards, it would be fucking incredible.
Now none of that backalley seedy shit appeals to me, that is nasty to me, but I don't need candles and incense sticks either. Just a guy with his own feelings, his own standards (cute would help), self-confidence, basically his own man. I can't stand really ignorant people, or job-dodgers, especially violent people too. Also, looking back, gay guys have seemed to come on to me and I never really understood, like I got drunk and kissed guys before but just for fun.
And I'm worried, even if it was the perfect situation, I'd still get nervous, fuck up and bail, and fuck it all up, that would be no fun for anyone. But I know once into it, I'd never stop, and it would be so much fun. It would be so naughty and bad. It's like a side of me I never understood has come alive. I wouldn't be any good though, so I'd need a lot of practice.
So what do you think? Am I gay? Bi curious? Just crazy? I love women but they don't love me back. And gay guys (not narcissistic "gay pride" guys but just average guys who happen to be gay) have ALWAYS been more self-aware, empathetic, mature, and generally have the ability to act like adults, unlike women who just have to be eternal princesses. And they actually take an interest in me regularly and listen to me which women just seem to be incapable of. Also I would go for a cute asian guy maybe but never a black guy or transexual. So if you want to call me racist and sexist, well, I suppose I don't care, it's just who I am.
Despite every attempt - and it's always been on my part - I have never been able to get a girlfriend. Websites, at work, friends, dating. Now I can appreciate that there's women out there who in the same boat, but I haven't met a single one yet. I don't consider myself old, but it's not like I was born yesterday either, and perpetually being the lonely guy "oh well maybe you'll find someone eventually" while women seem to get spoiled rotten their entire lives has been stressful.
So I thought why not go gay. The thought of a hard dick, in my mouth, slapping it against my face, masturbating it until it exploded down my throat, rubbing his belly and balls and legs.. it actually makes me hard. I love to do that, it makes my head spin, just sucking a hard dick like a whore, swallowing the whole load, sucking it until it was soft and saying thank you afterwards, it would be fucking incredible.
Now none of that backalley seedy shit appeals to me, that is nasty to me, but I don't need candles and incense sticks either. Just a guy with his own feelings, his own standards (cute would help), self-confidence, basically his own man. I can't stand really ignorant people, or job-dodgers, especially violent people too. Also, looking back, gay guys have seemed to come on to me and I never really understood, like I got drunk and kissed guys before but just for fun.
And I'm worried, even if it was the perfect situation, I'd still get nervous, fuck up and bail, and fuck it all up, that would be no fun for anyone. But I know once into it, I'd never stop, and it would be so much fun. It would be so naughty and bad. It's like a side of me I never understood has come alive. I wouldn't be any good though, so I'd need a lot of practice.
So what do you think? Am I gay? Bi curious? Just crazy? I love women but they don't love me back. And gay guys (not narcissistic "gay pride" guys but just average guys who happen to be gay) have ALWAYS been more self-aware, empathetic, mature, and generally have the ability to act like adults, unlike women who just have to be eternal princesses. And they actually take an interest in me regularly and listen to me which women just seem to be incapable of. Also I would go for a cute asian guy maybe but never a black guy or transexual. So if you want to call me racist and sexist, well, I suppose I don't care, it's just who I am.