Tired yet restless

The older I get, the more unhinged I become. I sometimes catch myself talking and rambling on like a madman. But I don't hear voices or think everything that happens is a secret coded message from God like a schizophrenic would. I'm just near the breaking point. Society has destroyed me. What's the point in living when all you do is work at a shit programming job and go home and drink by yourself to dull the pain of being an autistic loser. I might as well not exist. I don't expect that things should be better or different, but why should society expect that people like myself don't want to climb through the escape hatch via drugs or suicide?

The only solution would be to quit your job and rise above society through embracing asceticism. Any lesser move puts you at risk of being a part of society, as its influences will compel you to chase dopamine hits like a pleboid. It is clear your ramblings are caused by feeling frustrated at how stupid society is, the problem is that the stupidity of society is force more powerful and actually real than global warming. The proper move in this period is to rise above society through embracing asceticism.