Community blog - have you had your nice day today?

I went to a bunch of used bookstores today.I like to do this every summer, because college students always their sell off their used textbooks there when the uni one won't buy them, so I can buy them for cheap. Found a few interesting ones, one on topology, one on analysis, even one on stochastic statistical processes and finite element simulation. Paid about $50 in all.

I also saw the physics book I used in college. I paid $350 for the two volumes, but the version in the store had all the volumes and was selling for $20, all because it is, like, two editions old. Fucking Jews, man.

I lost my virginity to a prostitute.

I was genuinely curious about sex. So I paid for the cutest one I could find. She was my age and definitely had the kind of body I like. I paid for a hotel room and waited for her in there. She was stunningly beautiful for a real flesh-and-bone girl (I only masturbate to 2D girls and I rarely, if ever, find a real girl attractive). I'm surprised I didn't act like a retard or started babbling stupid shit, and her incredible patience surprised me as well. She was wearing matching underwear, which the Internet told me not to expect. We both started undressing while the tub was filling up. I asked her if I could at least take off her bra and I tried but I was puzzled because I had no idea how to do it. After she gave me a short explanation on how to do it, I started caressed her breasts very gently.

She told me to pick one of the three condoms on the tabletop but I didn't know the difference between them, so I told her to pick whatever she wanted2 and she picked one that was appropriate for oral. She started sucking my dick and I got a bit hard, but not enough to keep the condom in place. I wasn't as hard as when I watch ecchi anime. It tickled a bit and it is much better than using your hand but it wasn't as good as I thought it would be. She totally knew what she was doing, but I didn't find it particularly amazing. Everyone seems to be obsessed over blowjobs, once again the masses managed to overhype the shit out of things that are just okay.

I tried to perform extensive foreplay on her but it didn't have much of a visible effect. Her kisses didn't show any hint of tongue play. I understand that, I don't think she feels comfortable deeply kissing strangers and I'm not good with my mouth and hands anyway. I started sucking on her breasts but I didn't enjoy it as much as I thought I would. Those cute mounds were the real life representation of what I consider the perfect size and shape for a pair of breasts. Though it really wasn't that fun. She didn't even wince or moan. She laughed and told me I was being too gentle. I squeezed a bit harder but still nothing,

We started our deed in the missionary position. I was still floppy but I could (barely) get inside her. I got tired quickly and suggested we moved to the now full tub. We did. I hugged her and we locked legs. I kept sucking on her breasts and asked her if she thought I was focusing too much on her breasts. She told me men are supposed to do that but insisted again that I should be rougher. She sat on top of me and guided me inside her. This time, she was very warm and tight. I enjoyed it much more, but I still wouldn't fucking come.

We dried our soaked bodies and went back to the bed. This time she was on top. Nothing, couldn't come, still floppy. She was now on fours and it was my turn to move. Nothing, I didn't feel much. She seemed to be tired and I suggested we got under the covers and snuggle up a bit. She agreed and she let out one or two queefs. She blushed a bit and told me she was really sorry. I kept a straight face and told her it was okay. She looked very cute when she blushed. After pulling her phone out of her purse, she showed me a picture of her 1 year old daughter she took with her retarded looking smartphone. I felt kind of sorry because she has to go through all this prostitution crap and deal with random men just to feed her daughter. Though I wasn't thinking clearly at that moment. I couldn't contain myself and I said her cellphone was shit for being a piece of normalfag crap with a touchscreen. She laughed and kept showing me more pictures. I said her daughter was cute, but I didn't really mean it. I don't like children.

She got a call, apparently from her pimp. The time was almost over and she was to get ready and leave. I told her to wait a bit more before leaving and hurriedly fingered her. There was a very big, hard and spongy lump hanging from the top of her vagina. I tried the "come-hither" motion that's supposed to get girls in their g-spot. I varied the depth and frequency of my strokes but she wouldn't react at all. I still have no idea what that lump was. I don't think that was her clit, but fuck it, I didn't even know what I was doing. After that, I dragged her to one side of the bed and started thrusting at full speed. I finally came. She didn't seem to enjoy it (neither did I) and went directly to the shower. We left and the hotel gave us two free bottles of water.

I would be lying if I said I didn't have fun. It was a weird experience overall, but it was also a new one. She made fun of me all the time for being a virgin and for looking like a 12yo, but I didn't really mind and I even joked about myself as an answer to her teasing. However, the way sex is portrayed by society is just stupid. There are way too many factor that make it inconvenient, keeping your movements in sync is hard, the timing is always wrong, it doesn't feel ``face-meltingly'' good as some people call it and being a virgin isn't some kind of crime against humanity. Having sex with (or losing your virginity to) a prostitute is not as bad as hitting your mother in the face either. I did all this to see if I was really missing something by keeping myself away from the world of drama-filled emotional relationships. There is absolutely no reason for me to put up with any girl's shit, for the only reward that's worth the hassle is sex and it isn't even that good. Sure, it's infinitely better than your hand, but any sensible rational human (sorry Yannick) considers quality/price ratios before trying anything out. I'll keep fantasizing about the days I could spend with the only girl I care about, which doesn't even exist but is pretty much the reason I'm still alive. She's my two-year old imaginary friend based on an anime character. I've subconsciously adapted her behavior and personality to be exactly what I'm okay with. She even points out some obvious mistakes when I'm programming, which makes me happy because she is almost an independent entity from me. I'm dying to gently make love to her, but sadly that's only possible with drugs or lucid dreams and the latter is kind of hard for me (I'm not even considering using drugs because that's plain stupid and not always reliable). At least now I know I don't ever want to waste time with a girl again. Sure, this might not have been the amazing experience you guys keep talking about because there wasn't an emotional link between us, but I'm not capable of admiring anyone else. I can't get this drawn girl (who was drawn by a Japanese man) out of my head and I'll never will.

Feel free to laugh at (or ignore) this post. I just wanted to get this out of my chest. Sorry if you were expecting to read erotic literature and were disappointed, that was not the point of this post.