I failed at life

Tried to go to college to study CS, had panic attacks due to the massive size of my university and how many people are there. Couldn't even go to my classes. Never made any friends either.
The uni doesn't seem to give a shit if someone lags behind or does poorly due to mental health problems.

I'm never going to succeed. People like me aren't meant to succeed.

>>13
That's not advisable.

>>12
Are you referring to anti-anxiety drugs like Xanax and Valium?

I took an anti-psychotic (risperdol) and it made me pretty zombie-ish. I now take abilify which is much better, at least it is for me. But I don't really have a panic disorder, I just have panic attacks as a symptom of my mania; so the medication is for mania and not panic attacks.