I failed at life

Tried to go to college to study CS, had panic attacks due to the massive size of my university and how many people are there. Couldn't even go to my classes. Never made any friends either.
The uni doesn't seem to give a shit if someone lags behind or does poorly due to mental health problems.

I'm never going to succeed. People like me aren't meant to succeed.

I have bipolar disorder, and one of my most characteristic traits of my manic episodes is anxiety to the levels of hysteria. I take medication for it though. I've gotten better.