Name: Anonymous 2015-08-08 19:53
boys wont ever treat you the same again even if they are supportive at first. as you go further along you see that hetero men are creeped out by this shit. They do put this huge fucking distance to avoid you and make themselves safe because their brain identifies you as a threat unconsciously. I was ice cold with my best friend for months which I knew for more than 14 years after I went full time. life isnt a shitty fictionmania story or whatever shitty TG thing where you suddenly end up in bed with your best buddie and be the ideal partner and housewife for him. He came for a visit one day and found me curled up and crying on the couch, I was just trying to deal with body image issues and didnt really want to talk about him on that topic so I refused to answer "whats the problem" questions. He went ahead and strongly implied that I should come clean if I was having any feelings towards him so we should set things straight for the sake of our friendship. I bursted out in anger and told him about my real problem, told him that I was feeling fake with all that stupid padding which was uncomfortable and making me sweet. He just went "ah I thought it was something serious, just wear something that doesnt make you sweet, order from the net or some shit"
He wasnt satisfied with my answer I guess so we went outside for a coffee, he insisted on calling me by my old name in a crowd and outing me because "it is wrong to mislabel something, you will only be *your new name* after the surgery", let the door slam on my face on purpose and told me that he wouldnt hold doors for me yet while he was perfectly fine with it on occasion in the past. The last hit was he kept talking about his dream girl while we were walking outside, how she was supposed to be elegant, maternal, mature and feminine at all times with a natural beauty. He told me that his dream girl is supposed to look beautiful right after waking up naked next to him without any makeup and other shenanigans. I finally snapped and told him that he was just being a douche with this talk and asked he was any justice with the whole telling me to wear padding for the rest of my life thing and how my body issues werent legit. He paused for a long time and said "well... you are different... you shouldnt worry about these things", I stopped talking to him for a long time and our friendship was almost destroyed. He came to his senses when I lashed out to him after my surgery in a E driven rage and drew the fucking line and destroyed his fears about me going all lovey dovey for him. Now we are fine but it was fucking hard, he used to stay over when visiting me but he no longer does that because it would be inappropriate now and his ultra conservative mother is forcing me to work in the kitchen whenever I visit him and scolds me for not helping out my mom heh
He wasnt satisfied with my answer I guess so we went outside for a coffee, he insisted on calling me by my old name in a crowd and outing me because "it is wrong to mislabel something, you will only be *your new name* after the surgery", let the door slam on my face on purpose and told me that he wouldnt hold doors for me yet while he was perfectly fine with it on occasion in the past. The last hit was he kept talking about his dream girl while we were walking outside, how she was supposed to be elegant, maternal, mature and feminine at all times with a natural beauty. He told me that his dream girl is supposed to look beautiful right after waking up naked next to him without any makeup and other shenanigans. I finally snapped and told him that he was just being a douche with this talk and asked he was any justice with the whole telling me to wear padding for the rest of my life thing and how my body issues werent legit. He paused for a long time and said "well... you are different... you shouldnt worry about these things", I stopped talking to him for a long time and our friendship was almost destroyed. He came to his senses when I lashed out to him after my surgery in a E driven rage and drew the fucking line and destroyed his fears about me going all lovey dovey for him. Now we are fine but it was fucking hard, he used to stay over when visiting me but he no longer does that because it would be inappropriate now and his ultra conservative mother is forcing me to work in the kitchen whenever I visit him and scolds me for not helping out my mom heh