Name: Anonymous 2018-01-27 1:40
I believe I may have been a victim of MKULTRA or more likely a related more advanced program,
I base this off of a few things:
- Unexplainable, extreme fetish-like behavior (anal) initiated and acted out with fellow children of the same gender around the ages of 8-10
- At this same point, I believed you could get a girl pregnant by kissing and also believed all humans shared the same genitalia (this is to illustrate my complete lack of understanding of sexuality)
- Upon being put through therapy due to a neighbor kids mom catching us, I shut down completely, I would sit for nearly the entire session in silence
- I was only allowed to stop attending therapy when I took a stand claiming no abuse was ever committed against me, I truly had no recollection of anything of that sort
- I was unusually gifted mentally from a young age, was marked with a college reading level in 5th grade.
- Taken care of by emotionally unstable adoptive guardians, who despite keeping us in a lower-middle class living situation maintained regular contact with a certain high level celebrity figure (60 Mil + net worth) who was "always very interested in how I was doing"
- Also, have many familial connections to the military that are never discussed and downplayed when brought up
- I have strong recurring connections to a family which owned a "military supply company, related to aerospace" which I have been unable to find any record of
- This family was closely connected to the founders of one of the largest Catholic institutions in the USA
- This family has a very large amount of wealth going back generations, as well as proven incestual/pedophilic behavior occurring and being supported by other members of the family
- Their behavior is reminiscent of Monarchs, mothers pushing daughters under 18 to start relationships with men over the age of 50 who happen to be quite rich(and likely have more important connections that have not been revealed)
- All females I am aware of in this family marry men 2x - 3x their age and in more than one instance marrying direct relatives (classic "keep the money in the family" behavior or alternatively "keep the bloodline pure") would again like to mention this family is very very wealthy
- Recurring fixations on animal print patterns which is a known symbol of Beta Kitten (sex slave) programming, coupled with Behaviors reminiscent of trauma victims and obvious signs of mental anguish
- No memories of my childhood prior to the age of 10
There are probably other things I have missed but I am simply attempting to show the signs that have made me suspicious and maybe I am being overly paranoid but I feel like I know with 100% certainty if I did hypno-therapy to the time period of my childhood that I have blocked out I would encounter some horrifying shit,
So I guess what I am looking for is methods to unlock these blocked out memories, and possibly ways to confirm that my mind has been fucked with in some way,
Any advice or similar experiences are welcome
I base this off of a few things:
- Unexplainable, extreme fetish-like behavior (anal) initiated and acted out with fellow children of the same gender around the ages of 8-10
- At this same point, I believed you could get a girl pregnant by kissing and also believed all humans shared the same genitalia (this is to illustrate my complete lack of understanding of sexuality)
- Upon being put through therapy due to a neighbor kids mom catching us, I shut down completely, I would sit for nearly the entire session in silence
- I was only allowed to stop attending therapy when I took a stand claiming no abuse was ever committed against me, I truly had no recollection of anything of that sort
- I was unusually gifted mentally from a young age, was marked with a college reading level in 5th grade.
- Taken care of by emotionally unstable adoptive guardians, who despite keeping us in a lower-middle class living situation maintained regular contact with a certain high level celebrity figure (60 Mil + net worth) who was "always very interested in how I was doing"
- Also, have many familial connections to the military that are never discussed and downplayed when brought up
- I have strong recurring connections to a family which owned a "military supply company, related to aerospace" which I have been unable to find any record of
- This family was closely connected to the founders of one of the largest Catholic institutions in the USA
- This family has a very large amount of wealth going back generations, as well as proven incestual/pedophilic behavior occurring and being supported by other members of the family
- Their behavior is reminiscent of Monarchs, mothers pushing daughters under 18 to start relationships with men over the age of 50 who happen to be quite rich(and likely have more important connections that have not been revealed)
- All females I am aware of in this family marry men 2x - 3x their age and in more than one instance marrying direct relatives (classic "keep the money in the family" behavior or alternatively "keep the bloodline pure") would again like to mention this family is very very wealthy
- Recurring fixations on animal print patterns which is a known symbol of Beta Kitten (sex slave) programming, coupled with Behaviors reminiscent of trauma victims and obvious signs of mental anguish
- No memories of my childhood prior to the age of 10
There are probably other things I have missed but I am simply attempting to show the signs that have made me suspicious and maybe I am being overly paranoid but I feel like I know with 100% certainty if I did hypno-therapy to the time period of my childhood that I have blocked out I would encounter some horrifying shit,
So I guess what I am looking for is methods to unlock these blocked out memories, and possibly ways to confirm that my mind has been fucked with in some way,
Any advice or similar experiences are welcome