This is the email I recieved that started this conversation. As you can see, the person complains about some social issue said person is having on servers. I don't know why a man would care about such things... Now this person is accusing me of worshiping the devil, complaining about my "behavior", when this person emailed me and I've never done any "behavior" save for pressing keys on a keyboard. What is this about? xrun1@users.sourceforge.net From:xrun1@users.sourceforge.net To:chaosesqueteam@users.sourceforge.net Cc:xrun1@users.sourceforge.net
<rika@disroot.org>
Hello, you are MikeeUSA, right? I'm a Xonotic modder who was editing one of your map a few months ago, roundel. I happened to find the README you left in the pk3 and was positively surprised, given the sorry state of the average audience for this game. I wholeheartedly agree with your message, and I'm sure you and I both know by now how everyone will have our head on a pike for reaching such a level of awareness.
Yesterday I was searching about Xonotic on imageboard archives, found some of your posts, and made the connection. SF is very slow so I'm still downloading your game, but I'm shocked there's such a strange-looking fork of Xonotic that's been worked on for 10 years and seems to contain so much content, yet no one has ever mentioned it. I've only been playing since 2019 so I don't know about all the drama, but it seems like you're been persecuted for your beliefs. Unfortunately, you have to choose between having any online presence and revealing them. On top of that, developing in these obscure niches is a lonely road, it's unlikely you will ever get the help you seek. I'm baffled by the level you've reached myself, and am clearly far below in term of skills. At my level, I struggle daily to make sense of Xonotic's code base, and the code for new features I implement on top is far from being clean.
My server's gameplay differs far more than any other server on the list, but no one cares and I barely manage to assemble some games on some nights. Despite living in the EU like most of the player base, I have zero chances to grow there because I'm not in the big two club, and thus I have to host for NA and wake up at 4 AM, profiting from the fact that the only other established NA server is full of drama and bans most newcomers. Given the trouble I have even though I'm working with a game that has some players already, I can really feel your pain. I know it's not much, but I'll remember you.
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Anonymous2025-03-02 18:31
>Can you stop and think out of the box for two seconds about your behavior, What "behaviour". This is the internet, nothing takes place here. The only "behavior" that is occuring is the pressing of square buttons.
>or are you a psychopath incapable of reasoning? "If you don't agree with me you are a psychopath" A very reasonable argument.
>Why are you so obsessed with torture? You said people in europe came after you, including police. You indicated you feared prison and consequences. The solution is the make the consequences for your adversary far worse than what they could ever inflict upon you: because they will.
Don't ask a question you do not want answered. Not even by omission.
>Do you watch gore and snuff in your free time? Nope. You sound like a woman. Are you a woman? Your way of arguing is not like a mans. It leans heavily on emotional manipulation and shaming, and shys away from contemplating direct physical conflict, or any direct action at all. It imagines consequences from third parties, instead of the first party or the principael itself.
>From the moment we start talking, I've been silent this whole time, are you hearing things? >these words are in your mouth, I haven't spoken a word to you.
>it's repulsive. I'm not trying to fuck you, bitch.
>It's no wonder that no one wants to associate with you, Again: we've never met, and I have never met any of these "others". Do you have any map formats in hand that you will graciously donate to this GPL'd project? If not; what value is it to me to "associate" with you (whatever that means)? Why would I seek out this "association"? Additionally: I did not email you: you emailed me: remeber?
Again another womanly characteristic: blaming me for what you "initiated"
>your behavior is fucking creepy. No behavior has taken place. Save for the rhytmic up and down motions of a number of depressed keys, not exceeding 128.
>Do you worship the devil? YHWH. The Dragon.
>Do you want to drink the blood of your victims and harvest adrenochrome too? I want to marry cute little girl virgins. Same as any man.
>How many corpses do you hide in your basement? Zero. The basement is a night club. You should know this.
>Can you stop and think out of the box for two seconds about your behavior, or are you a psychopath incapable of reasoning? Why are you so obsessed with torture? Do you watch gore and snuff in your free time? From the moment we start talking, these words are in your mouth, it's repulsive. It's no wonder that no one wants to associate with you, your behavior is fucking creepy. Do you worship the devil? Do you want to drink the blood of your victims and harvest adrenochrome too? How many corpses do you hide in your basement?
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Anonymous2025-03-02 18:36
Am I supposed to be happy he(she?) was fucking with my maps? >Oh thank you so much for fucking with my stuff, thank you, let me kiss your feet! or really your fundament probably in the original language.
Did she think I would be so besmitten with the initial praise that I would simply agree with whatever cuntish shit she believes? Why would I care about her except for whatever shit she can and does bring to the table. IE: I want map format code. In C. In C ISO90.
>>11 "Dear 11, hi i'm just txting you to tell you how great your maps are, they are so great I am editing them! You are so oppressed. Kthx bi"
"DEAR 11 THIS IS WHY NO ONE WANTS TO WORK WITH YOU!!! FUCK YOU !!!!"
>>11 In this transaction you were "paid" >Someone editing your maps (this does not benifit you) >"Praise" You are now expected to "repay" by agreeing with them on their social issue. (In this case Jesus being god, better a millstone, don't rape little girls into marraige, oppose old testament god because he's a rapist who wants you to marry little girls, and also agree that he didn't really mean any of that and Jesus clarified things).
What have you gained in this "transaction"? Why should you be expected to "pay" by changing your beliefs to this other persons beliefs.
>>11 Now: As to "why I made them opensource if bla bla bla" Licenses are a grant. Permission. Permission does not mean I am happy about you editing my maps. Just as if I give you an gratis easement to reach some wilderness area, it doesn't mean I am happy you do so.
The value of you reaching the wilderness area, for free, due to my easement and your legs: is with you. It does not benifit me. Nor does it make me happy.
I gain nothing. >So why grant the easement. So deer can be shot. Or so the wolves in the wilderness area can gnaw on the hikers that enter of their own volition.
Does this benifit me? No. Does it hurt white faggots who oppose men marrying little girls. Yes.
>How does this relate to opensource. Nothing is free. When one is tempted by the open code or media, it draws some in. They waste their life changing it, entranced by it's false complexity. And then their life is set. And is over.
That is one potential reason to do something that does not benifit oneself.
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Anonymous2025-03-09 20:30
chaosesqueteam@yahoo.com From:chaosesqueteam@yahoo.com To:rika@disroot.org Sun, Mar 2 at 11:23 PM Dear Rika: Instead of arguing about religion, how about this. You implement a map format of your choice into the engine (source code) included with this project, in the C90 ISO standard (declarations before executable code in blocs) and the engine thence be improved in a real and measurable way.
Once you have done that you may add, in ASCII, (comment) Art a Cross of your choosing to the top of one of the edited files that doesn't yet have one.
Thus perhaps attracting Sanctifying Grace to counter act the very clear Devil worship that John Carmack was engaged in during the creation of Quake (remeber he got very rich too).
If you don't know of a format that you would like to implement; please choose from one of the ones on the wishlist or tracker areas on the project page. However any format will be accepted provided it does not use external libraries at all (ie all code is real code you or others have done for the engine) and it is under the same license as the engine (GPLv2 +) and compiles etc and we can get it to be ISOC90 compliant (not hard, just no use of C95 stuff like movable arrays etc) That way it will be good for old hardware poor whites have. rika From:rika@disroot.org To:chaosesqueteam@yahoo.com Mon, Mar 3 at 1:29 PM That is an interesting challenge and there's indeed a format I'd like to port to Xonotic. You may know there are a few existing pseudo-2D maps that work with camera tricks; I have an interest in making side-scrolling maps with adequate modded physics into a serious gameplay alternative. However, I only work with xonotic-data.pk3dir, and you talk about C instead of QC. That means I wouldn't be able to have this map parsing just work on my server, and requiring players to manually download another client isn't gonna work. My time is finite, I work for the sake of my project first. I already take care of cleaning up the pk3dir source, my server is the only one where spectators aren't assigned the number of the beast as score. What I would do instead is to write an external parser and converter for the new map format to output a preprocessed pk3 that would work with any Xonotic-based client including yours. chaosesqueteam@yahoo.com From:chaosesqueteam@yahoo.com To:rika Sun, Mar 9 at 4:27 PM So basically you're saying you won't implement any map formats in the engine: the only thing I've asked for. And you just say "I will do what I want"
What was the point of contacting me then? What value do I get from this?
You'll run out of globals in QC. That is if you can parse the format at all. If it has any need of constructing geometry: you can't do it in QC really. Most actual format processing must be done in the engine.
The exception can be if it's a tile based map: you can make 3d models of all the tiles. However, if you aren't using my engine, you will run out of entities. Regular DP can only do 32k or so entities before it hits an internal and also a network limit (2 bytes) My version can address up to a million or so (4 million iirc). And by default 200k or so compiled.
Thirdly entities aren't exactly fast, so if you make everything an entity it will be slow. Imagine every triangle as a seperate model and a seperate entity.
>No number of the beast for spectators That doesn't fit. Those who accept the sign of the beast do so because they are just obeying their masters, just along for the ride in life. Much like a spectator.
Assigning spectators the number of the beast seems fitting, in a way. Look at all who simply obeyed and took the vaccine for instance.
Third You came to Quake. Quake didn't come to you. It is disrespectful to change meaningless things to attempt to hide Quake's demon worship.
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Anonymous2025-03-09 20:39
A simple "No" would have been enough, asshole. And what's with your name? "Rika"? That's either an anime girl character or a norwegian female name equivelent of Erik. Both woman.
And you want me to believe you're a man? When your first though is to complain about being "bullied" by "the big two, gosh!" As if i'd sympathize?
The second thing you do is claim you don't even want a woman, "gosh!" And the third is that you say you're done caring what "other men" think. LOL
Also rika@disroot seems familiar. Maybe I've come across your name before. I know disroot email service is familiar for the same reason cock.li is. I think I may have used it before.
So you are trying to conceal yourself off the bat. You send a "nice" message to try to make me think I "owe" you something.
But that's not payment enough for me. I told you what I demand: map formats.
You've said you won't do them. So what good are you? What my project is about is clear.
And you criticise me, obliquely, for "talking about C" >However, I only work with xonotic-data.pk3dir, and you talk about C instead of QC.
C is the real code. And you diss me for daring to suggest it as if it's passe.
If you only care about your server then why did you email me? You can care about your server alone.
Just as how I program alone. And work on 3d models alone. etc.
The work itself is it's own reward. So why did you contact me? Fishing for something that I won't give?
Since you won't give either?
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Anonymous2025-03-13 1:55
In response to the following message from "Rika": rika (rika@disroot.org) wrote: >Don't be so fixated on a disposable address, jew. Having a narcissistic >meltdown when you realize someone isn't here to lick your boots? You >thought I was here for free labor or something? Can't even understand >the purpose of my initial message? Maybe you can go use some of your >excess time to fix your shitty untested campaign and find a legible >font, no one cares about your map formats and 200 copy-pasted weapons >when it's part of this unplayable clusterfuck. I know you're already >preparing to furiously type out some schizo babble about how your bugs >are actually feature because you've been denied child brides and you're >gonna kill the police blahblahblah, no need to bother because I won't >see it. Bye.
My response: Dear rika <rika@disroot.org>;
>Maybe you can go use some of your >excess time to fix your shitty untested campaign and find a legible >font, no one cares about your map formats and 200 How your reveal yourself. Remeber your first email? Mad I didn't fall for it?
False praise, or real praise, is not the currency I deal in.
>Can't even understand >the purpose of my initial message? I understood it completely.
>Having a narcissistic >meltdown when you realize someone isn't here to lick your boots? I didn't contact you, you emailed me. You. And you were ass-kissing in that email. You're mad I didn't melt into your hands.
>narcissistic You're the one who emailed me. I did not email you.
>You >thought I was here for free labor or something? This is an opensource project, if you aren't here to help, get the fuck out. And yes: free labour is the only, ONLY, value you have to me. Remeber when you emailed me kissing my ass? I knew you were fishing. You ain't getting SHIT out of me.
Mad I asked you to contribute C code to the C engine? Mad?
>Don't be so fixated on a disposable address, You used rika@disroot before. I remeber it from 4chan's /g/ probably Or 8chan. I think it was 4chan though. You write in the same manner as before, and are displaying the same "complaints" as then. I'll find you out.
>jew. Hope the "jews" slaughter and torture you, white fucking faggot. >Having a narcissistic
rika (rika@disroot.org) wrote: >Don't be so fixated on a disposable address, jew. Having a narcissistic >meltdown when you realize someone isn't here to lick your boots? You >thought I was here for free labor or something? Can't even understand >the purpose of my initial message? Maybe you can go use some of your >excess time to fix your shitty untested campaign and find a legible >font, no one cares about your map formats and 200 copy-pasted weapons >when it's part of this unplayable clusterfuck. I know you're already >preparing to furiously type out some schizo babble about how your bugs >are actually feature because you've been denied child brides and you're >gonna kill the police blahblahblah, no need to bother because I won't >see it. Bye. You'll see it. If I have to dig out your eyes in person: you'll see it.
Note the initial unsolicited email from this "rika" was as such: rika@disroot.org wrote: > >Hello, you are MikeeUSA, right? I'm a Xonotic modder who was editing one of your map a few months ago, roundel. I happened to find the README you left in the pk3 and was positively surprised, given the sorry state of the average audience for this game. I wholeheartedly agree with your message, and I'm sure you and I both know by now how everyone will have our head on a pike for reaching such a level of awareness. > >Yesterday I was searching about Xonotic on imageboard archives, found some of your posts, and made the connection. SF is very slow so I'm still downloading your game, but I'm shocked there's such a strange-looking fork of Xonotic that's been worked on for 10 years and seems to contain so much content, yet no one has ever mentioned it. >I've only been playing since 2019 so I don't know about all the drama, but it seems like you're been persecuted for your beliefs. Unfortunately, you have to choose between having any online presence and revealing them. On top of that, developing in these obscure niches is a lonely road, it's unlikely you will ever get the help you seek. I'm baffled by the level you've reached myself, and am clearly far below in term of skills. At my level, I struggle daily to make sense of Xonotic's code base, and the code for new features I implement on top is far from being clean. > >My server's gameplay differs far more than any other server on the list, but no one cares and I barely manage to assemble some games on some nights. Despite living in the EU like most of the player base, I have zero chances to grow there because I'm not in the big two club, and thus I have to host for NA and wake up at 4 AM, profiting from the fact that the only other established NA server is full of drama and bans most newcomers. Given the trouble I have even though I'm working with a game that has some players already, I can really feel your pain. I know it's not much, but I'll remember you.
As you can see: it's full of blowing-smoke-up-your-ass praise. Anyway, this "rika" seems to be an enemy.
I asked the unsolicited "fan" to contribute code to the (opensource) game. This caused an uproar, now the game "sux" and "is shit" But I didn't make it for him? her?
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Anonymous2025-03-13 3:19
How it started/ How it ended. I got these emails from a fan of "Xonotic" (Quake1 game). The first email was nice from this person "Rika". Now the emails are not so nice. What are your thoughts? What is the relevance? This person ("Rika") pretended to be a Quake programmer. Anyone know who it is? First they say they like the code I do and were heaping praise on my opensource project, I asked them to contribute some C code, now they are saying my project is garbage etc etc. I like my project... (Note: They emailed me)
Dear Rika (rika@disroot.org); You use the same rhetoric as you do on 4chan, which will allow your identification via heuristics.
"skizo" "copypasted" etc. What happened to your blowing smoke up my ass glowing review from the first email? You think I'd fall for that cunt?
"Oh these other servers are so mean" only a faggot cunt woman bitch would care about that you fucking piece of fucking shit. Men care about programming and working on their own thing.
You also used this email address for other things, I vaguely remember. Also your complaints about "free labor" after emailing me: again that's another thing from yours on 4chan. You can be identified. I see you as an enemy, rika, I won't forget.
Piece of fucking shit. And others of your crew dissing my work on 4chan I will not forget nor forgive either. I will take revenge.
"Durrr I don't want to be like x and fork another project, that's lame" Hey, dipshit fuck, Darkplaces is Quake1. Either way you're forking a pre-existing fucking project you fucking piece of fucking shit.
I see you got nothing left to say. Go and fuck yourself, bitch.
I also notice I'm suddenly subscribed to some christianity mailing list. The only post of any merit from them is the one about the Syrian Coast.
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Anonymous2025-03-18 20:55
Hälfdän K Tripp You want to fight me? You're a muslim: we can fight to the death if you want. I hope your HTS fucks get tortured to death. Do you understand me? You so-called muslims don't even take young girls as brides anymore and you claim the Ashia hadiths in Sahih Bukari are fake etc (the ones that put her age at 6 or so). Fuck you. You want to fight? piece of FUCKING SHIT. I was on the net before you you piece of fucking garbage.
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Anonymous2025-03-18 20:59
I want revenge. By the end of the conversation this dipshit then disses my work and regurgitates the same stuff he says on 4chan "skizo" "copy pasted" etc. It's an opensource game. I make many of the 3d weapon models myself in blender. I code them too. I code in the engine aswell when I need something. I do textures, maps, etc. Some weapons are indeed opensource licensed models by other people. Yes. But I still have to do the code for them. That's how opensource works. It isn't "hey look at me, I did this all!!!111" I never said that: I did some, and lots of code. This person rika at disroot disses me and I want revenge against his physical person. He talks shit about my work for years on 4chan etc, and has now tried to "buddy up" with this bullshit praise which he then turned around. I want revenge.
Don't think I won't beable to find out who you are, in the fullness of time. I will not forgive you pretending to like my programming hobby, as a form of attempting a confidence scheme. I will not forgive. You piece of fucking shit.